her

I want to fall in love
with her
I want to be worthy
of falling in love
If only she would speak
where I can hear
and whisper secrets
What to say
to do
How to touch
How to be something
She desires
If only I knew
How to be worthy
of loving her

On wings of blood
she flies now,
the angel of
my undoing.
She scored her arms
and wings unfurled,
burgandy.
Wings that carried her
through my body
igniting nerves,
nerves that curled
like vines in fire.
She was pain
and now I am
nothing.

Ending again
Always ending
Never released
A prison of flesh
of earth
of clay made
to last forever
always brought back
never released
always here
always her

She burns a hole
Through the flesh of my heart
Slowly, slowly
A coal that drowns
In my blood
Igniting me
Extinguishing herself
As I grow bright
She dims
As I begin to live
She dies
My love awakens
And she is gone